Crankiness

I am a very cranky girl right now. I am on a diet of "clear liquids" to prep for the surgery. One day down, but then I can't believe I have to go through another day of this hell. And then a pure fast the day of! I know I'm a masochist, but I'm also a hedonist. This is just not working for me in general. I have a headache and am finding it hard to concentrate.

Nothing has really happened to me since I last posted. The bruise is still on my arm. I met Hammer last night to eat chocolate pizza at Max Brenner's. She was cranky last night, as she was last minute packing on her way to Portland to see the Alaskan. Brick made up with his boyfriend which is a good thing. B came over this afternoon and we watched Children of Men, a decidedly creepy movie.

Oh-- did I tell you that I emailed some professors about my incompletes? Well, I got two emails back, one from ProfSex and the other from our department chair. Both were encouraging. So, that's a ray of sunlight piercing the black storm cloud of crankiness in which I am generally enveloped.

Um... otherwise... um... well, I'm too scattered to post.

Expecting Narc back from LA any day now, but I don't expect that he'll ever call me again. I get scared just thinking about him. I really shouldn't let myself go there, so I won't. I just need to think positive thoughts and take care of myself right now. I need to be a good mother to "little Hyde."

My head is spinning as much as it is aching. I'm going to go suck on an ice pop and watch some brainless TV. Hopefully sleep will come soon tonight.

love,
h

PS: Patti LuPone in Gypsy was PHENOMENAL! The audience was so in love with her and everyone was so enthusiastic. Oh, and Stephen Sondheim was there... seriously... it was, as I said to Hammer, "an event!" It was most certainly an event!