Rounding the Bend

Ugh! Another very vivid dream last night. This one was pretty awful...a sex dream with Narc and he wouldn't kiss me. I barely slept.

Cherubino spent the night here last night. She crashed here after she faced Harry Potter mayhem, picking up her book in Union Square at midnight.

I had dinner with NDN last night-- sushi. (But he didn't feed it to me!). Strangely enough, I hadn't seen NDN since the Fourth of July!! We took a brief stroll around the neighborhood before coming back to my place. Then he took off for South Hampton.

In other news, I finally went to the library yesterday! I have been having trouble getting myself to tackle my school work. I feel very detached from all of that... unintegrated, incapable. But I went to the library to return overdue books and find a dissertation to write a review essay for my recent British History class.

I also had therapy yesterday. Unfortunately, he offered no practical solution to my seemingly mounting depression.

I polished my nails this morning and now they are catching in the keyboard (I'm typing on the laptop at a really bad angle, laying on my bed) and my nails got all fucked up. I think I'm too lazy to fix them.

I feel like things are at a serious shifting point these days. Will I have the courage to forge ahead?

love,
h

PS: I yelled at a cab driver yesterday. We were nearing my apartment and he said he wanted to drop me off an avenue over because of traffic. I couldn't believe it. "If you didn't want to deal with traffic, you shouldn't have become a NYC cab driver!" I said. Ugh...!