I just finished making my fall syllabus. Woke up at N's this morning. Passionless sex with him is all it is anymore, and it's kind of creepy how something once SO intense can become so much of nothing. He told me about a Craig's List ad he posted Friday night. I just went online and found it. I have mixed feelings about all that. Whatever he and I once had is dead, and he has every right to be looking for his "muse," as he like to call her, but it still makes me feel... I don't know... I'll just have to say "uncomfortable," for lack of a better term.
Anyway, I have to go to AA tonight. I didn't drink nearly enough today and am afraid I might get dehydrated. It sucks. I really just want to go home right now.
Love,
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