Here we go again...

So, I survived the weekend and the prospectus got done. Thank God!

On Saturday after a day of library, I had dinner with my parents. Later on, I went down to see Narc. I didn't go into this all that much, but I had a feeling he was hanging out with that LA-girl on Friday and it turns out that I was right. (Sometimes I am just really intuitive or really psychic when it comes to him.)

It's no big deal at this point, but I can see it coming. She's the same girl as the Exhibitionist/PopStar/Laurie and whoever else there's been in the past. She's the exact same type. It's the exact same dynamic. Apparently he needs to keep putting himself through this. It may not last longer than this one day, or she may stick around for months. And if he gets on a roller coaster with her, then I'll be on one too. I just don't have it in me to go through that again.

And seriously-- Narc hates women because he thinks they're all materialistic, shallow, duplicitous and whatever else. But this is who he decides to crush on-- a girl who was in LA with some guy, yet on that trip fucked James. (Oh-- and she has a gross STD and doesn't think it's a big deal. James has the same one. At least that should ensure that Narc doesn't ever sleep with her.) I don't think she's interested in him at all. She thinks Narc is going to give her a part in a movie (what movie???) and that's why she's flirting with him. She knows it; he knows it; and now I know it.

Whatever... None of this is my problem. That is, unless I make it my problem.

I don't want to deal with this. It's stupid and I'm not going to go through it again. But at the same time, it's not something I know how to talk to him about and so I just didn't say anything. He was being shady about the whole thing to begin with, so on some level he knows that it's not okay or that it would hurt me.

Anyway, the point is that we had a lot of sex and I felt weird about it. I still feel a little weird about it. In some ways, we're closer than ever (as friends, that is). But in other ways, we still can't talk at all.

We finished out Season 2 of Lost that night and the next morning. I actually woke up at 8:00 AM on Saturday and did a lot of work on his laptop while he slept. Then we finished Lost and then I had to finish the prospectus.

I was exhausted beyond belief last night. I thought it might be due to some medication I'm on, but I came home and went to bed early and it turns out that I just really needed some sleep. This weekend has been emotionally draining.

I'm also pissed off at my doctor and at my pharmacy. I had that really horrible UTI last week, have been on Cipro for six days now and am still having symptoms. I've been on Cipro many times in the past and never had a problem with it. But since I was still in pain, I finally went online and looked up the drug. It turns out that if you take it with iron or calcium or whatever other vitamin supplements, it renders the drug 90% ineffective. My doctors and my pharmacy know I'm taking those things. I'm on a prescription iron supplement, for God's sake! So, no wonder it hasn't been working. I've just been downing super-strong antibiotics for no apparent reason. Ugh! I called the doctor this morning and I'm going over to the pharmacy later to yell at them for not giving me some warning.

Anyway, that's it for now. I'm meeting BigSis later for lunch and then I've got class tonight. It felt good to make the deadline and get my prospectus in on time. I'm actually sort of enjoying this class...

love,
h