Update

For better or for worse, we just "video chatted." He walked in front of his computer so his dick was in my face. I was embarrassed. We talked about nothing... movies... his movie... his friend James... how it ended with PopStar. Then he asked if I wanted him to come to my place. Somehow we got on the subject of porn... somehow we got on the subject of masturbation.

"I don't think this is good for me," I said. "I think I should go."

"I'll leave it up to you," he said. "Call me if you want to be with me tonight."

"It's up to me?" I asked, increduously.

"Yes, Hyde. It's up to you."

We logged off from our chat. One minute later the phone rang.

"So-- are you going to masturbate with me now, or what?" he asked.

I did...

I love cat and mouse with him. I don't want to analyze. I want to take a shower and not hate myself.

love,
h