Happenings

Congratulations to me-- yesterday was the two year anniversary of my sobriety.

I spent most of the day working on a paper at Narc's place; then I went to a meeting and then my best friends all met at a diner on the Upper West Side to mark the occasion. It was a great night, despite the rain.

Wednesday was the anniversary of when my dad passed away. A tough day altogether. I woke up at Narc's, left him on the Lower East Side in a cab, took the Circle Line Cruise to be reflective on the water, had a voice lesson, prayed, and then Narc came back over here. I made him a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. He was appreciative. He said he never ate one before. (He also recently told me that he has never slow danced).

Other than that, I am super stressed about wrapping up the semester. Things with Narc and I still aren't good, even though we hang out nearly every day. He is still hanging out with LAGirl and it still makes me sick and sad. Today is his birthday and I texted him last night just after midnight. He hasn't answered and he hasn't called today either. I'm sure he's spending it with his other friends (or maybe even LAGirl-- I know she was at his place the other day) and not with me. Again... sick and sad.

But I don't want to dwell. I'm tired of dwelling.

In other news, B got a full time tenure-track job teaching writing at a local college in the fall; NDN has a girlfriend for the first time in a while; Bezoukhoff broke up with his girlfriend... um... and I guess that's it for the moment.

Just wanted to pop in and say something, even though I am trying to stop dwelling and obsessing! Ok... off to get dressed now. Am going to try to make my own independent plan today, even though it's N's birthday. I'm going to take my laptop to a cafe and work on my paper. Then I'm going to go to the AA meeting tonight. Then, my friend Jake is having a birthday dinner and karaoke thing tonight, so I can always go to that if I'm not too tired. Tomorrow I'm off to Long Island for Mother's Day.

Hope you're all well!

love,
h