I need to give myself permission...
If I end things... if I stop loving him... if I let "forever" have an ending... how can I ever trust my own word again? How can "always" mean anything when I've told lies like that to my own heart?
I am a liar.
But maybe I need to give myself permission to be a liar... Maybe it's not such a bad thing to have been wrong.
(But maybe it is...)
This is all about who I am in the world and whether or not I can trust myself...
love,
h
6 comments:
For what it's worth. I think you can trust yourself and for over a year, you have.
I've yet to meet anybody who hasn't told a lie at some point in their life. To me, this isn't a lie, Hyde, you were simply wrong.
The last two posts were completely opposite. The first was contentment, the latter was questioning. Only you can make the change. We just read and offer an ear and advice. Sometimes I wish I could take over people's bodies and make them do the things I would do. Funny how that is. Whatever you decide to do, I will stand by you and support you with a listening ear and advice.
Ask yourself the question from the other side...do you want to be loyal to you? Trustworthy to you?
Thank you!
Let's plan that trip.
I intend on writing in my blog and making everything a draft. I could always email them to you : )
You have been a great friend and a true inspiration.
It's not a lie if you believed it at the time, Hyde.
People change, they grow, they learn from their mistakes. Sometimes that means things we said or believed turn out to not be so...but that's the way it should be.
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